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An Honest Description of Life as a New Mom

Being a mom is the hardest, most beautiful thing I’ve ever done.

Don’t get me wrong… I love being a mom and I will get to all of that soon. But… being a mom is by far the most difficult thing I’ve ever had to do. Probably in part a by-product of the postpartum hormones. But largely because I have always been an intensely emotional person, and being a mom has brought entirely new layers of emotions, and honestly – I’m exhausted.

Firstly, I’m a selfish person. I love my sleep, I love naps – and don’t ever wake me up from a nap unless you are ready to face my furry. But as a mom… sleep? Oh, you mean those sporadic 1-2 hour naps – yeah those are great! And it’s just my reality now; I just don’t have the luxury of sleeping in on Sundays anymore.

Then there are the sweet luxuries of trying a new bottle of wine on a Friday night, and why not opening a second bottle! I really don’t think my entirely breastfeed baby would appreciate the taste of Chianti as much as I do. Which is fine, I get to enjoy a small glass of wine every once and a while, as well as the occasional beer. But honestly, not waking up with a hangover does have its advantages!

Although this may be only 2 small examples of the long list of changes I’ve faced in the past 2 months, I wouldn’t change any of it for the world.

Have you seen my son? Spoiler: he’s perfect.

His dark brown curious eyes are what have been melting my heart recently. He’s awake and aware, and he’s recently started smiling… on purpose!

I’ve never been prouder of myself than how I’ve handled being a mom.  I’ve shown myself a whole new strength I never knew I had. Everything we’ve had to go through since Mason’s birth has been short of extremely stressful. Although I had my moments where I broke down in tears or got impatient with a nurse, or family or friends – I did it. I woke up every 2 hours for the past 2 months to feed my child and put him back to sleep. I’ve changed hundreds of diapers at all hours of the day. Oh and, the puking. I’ve been puked on thousands of times. Side note: If you haven’t seen my baby, he’s 12.9 lbs at 3 months old – don’t worry he’s eating more than enough, and no, he’s not overfed. He’s just like that. Good thing I’ve always loved doing laundry!

So far, everything my family and friends have said about being a mom has been right on point. So when they tell me it will get easier, I believe them.  I’m taking it one day at a time, and spending my day seeing this little boy evolve is just the most incredible thing.

I hope if anything, that he grows up one day, and understands how much I loved him in this very moment while he naps next to me.

Since I’m strong on the “nap while he sleeps rule”, I’m going to go close my eyes. *Refer to part where I explain that I’m selfish about sleep.

Good morning world and goodnight!

Amanda Kayla Liberty | Blog | Video Games

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Life Updates!

Hello lovelies,

I know it’s been a while… like a very long time since I’ve posted anything on my blog – but here I am, and I’m truly back!

If you follow me on any of my social media, then you probably already know the big news…

I’m pregnant! 

We are expecting a little baby boy in February 2017 – and we couldn’t be happier. 

We’ve also purchased a new house and are moving in 4 weeks before the baby is due – crazy I know. Hopefully the little guy takes his time and gives me enough time to setup all the new furniture! And by setup, I really mean order my loved ones around for a couple days until all the new furniture is built and in the right spot. I’m going to have to be extra creative with my thank you gifts… dealing with an 8 month pregnant woman trying to nest won’t be easy! 

So besides buying furniture and decor for the new house, starting my baby registry, I’ve also started a new job in the last month – hooray! I couldn’t really couldn’t be happier. They’ve also been super amazing about my pregnancy which takes a lot of stress off of me. Although I don’t want my blog to become a pregnancy or new mom blog, you can definitely expect that a couple of my posts will be baby related, I mean this is a really big deal!!

So stick around to see all the exciting projects and adventures I have on the go!


Amanda xox

Having a Bad Day? Let’s Change That…

Have you ever had one of those days, where everything seemed to go completely wrong?

I started writing this post last week, halfway through what seemed to be the worst day ever. I slept through my alarm… so my morning was off to a great start already. I tried my best to be semi-presentable and rushed to catch my bus. As I left my building, the bus was driving passed me and I ran to catch it… I managed to leap into the largest slush puddle, and got my socks, completely soaked. I missed the bus, and had to walk 15 minutes to the next stop. Finally when I got on my bus, I had the loudest person come sit next to me, blabbing away on their phone. I forgot my headphones back at home, which means it was a torturous commute… Eventually after a 1 hour bus ride, I finally get to work. Of course the first thing on my mind is… COFFEE. I grab a fresh cup, sit at my desk, and I’m sure you can already tell where I’m going with this… I dropped the entire cup on my desk and lap. I remember being stunned and walking away, hiding in the bathroom to let out a few tears. Why is everything going so wrong? Why is this happening to me?

The truth is, and some might disagree, but bad energy brings bad results. Yes, some things are completely out of our control, but what we do have control over is the way we choose to feel about the situation.

If I wasn’t so upset about missing my bus, having to walk, and the fact that my feet were wet and cold, I might not have been so annoyed with the person talking on the phone. And if I wasn’t so upset about all of that I might not have been on edge, and could have avoided spilling my coffee. Listen, I know what I’m saying is easier to accept after the fact. It’s hard to be positive when you’re standing in a cold puddle that’s formed in your boots, or drenched in burning hot coffee. I get it. But sometimes, if we just moved passed those problems, and looked around instead of sulking, we would see all the magic that surrounds us.

Just the other day I was upset because my cellphone died while I was commuting home. As I put my phone away I started to look at the people around me waiting at the bus stop. That’s when I noticed this elderly lady struggle to walk through the mounts of snow with her large grocery bags. These men in suits rushed passed her, I thought to myself “someone should help her… I should help her”… before I could take a step, this young man, maybe 16 years old at the most, stopped her and asked her if she needed help, he grabbed her bags and walked her to the bench inside the bus stop. My eyes filled with water. How lucky I was to witness this moment, how lucky I was that for once, I wasn’t too busy staring at my screen. 

All this to say… I made a list of things to remember, for the next time I accidentally jump in puddles without my rain boots. (Because jumping in puddles can actually be very therapeutic.) 

Accept the Situation

Oh, you spilled your coffee? That really sucks. Are you still alive? Thought so. Clean up, brush it off and make a new cup.

It Could be Worse

Your boss was tough on you today, and you get home all worked up… Move on, you might not always like your job, but at least you have a job.

Force Yourself to Smile

Are you mad? Oh no… You’re furious! You say there’s no way anything can turn your mood around? Really? Please Google “Funny Pugs” and tell me that you don’t feel a little bit better.

This Isn’t Permanent

OKAY FINE. Some days are just so impossible that you can’t move past them… At least find comfort in the fact that no matter how hard it gets, This too Shall Pass (my very wise little sister shared that quote with me).

Superhero Mode

You’re having a really shitty day. Guess what? You’re probably not the only one. Get out of your head, and make someone smile, do something nice. I guarantee it will change your perspective.

 

Amanda Kayla Liberty | Blog | Video Games

A Funny Story. A Forever Friend.

When we stop and think about the small moments that lead us here today, it’s almost impossible to deny destiny. For example, my best friend. Our friendship grew out of the most unusual circumstances – and I’m so very happy it did. We’ve been through a lot… almost 10 years of friendship and a roller coaster ride at times, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.

We went to the same high school but always had a different group of friends. In 10th grade our circles of friends started to become closer, but I still can’t remember speaking to her very much at first. Basically, the reason we began to talk was that in 10th grade my first ever skater-boy-boyfriend dumped me, and started to date her! As if life couldn’t be more ironic, we ended up going to Italy together weeks later, with our school’s art students – and had to sleep in the same room.

How many girls could have said that within those 4 walls, they could have built a forever friendship with the girl that stole her boyfriend? (She didn’t really steal him – I mean, we were in 10th grade after all.)

I don’t think it would have worked in most cases. What it took was two awkwardly hilarious individuals with kind hearts and open minds. That’s the reason we became friends in Italy, and that’s the reason we are still friends today.

I owe a lot of who I am today to her. She’s picked me up at my lowest, she loved me even when I wasn’t lovable and she never gave up on me. There’s nothing that I could ever do to repay her for being my friend, especially when I didn’t even deserve one.

Through broken hearts, bleeding limbs, lost jobs and failed classes. Through new love and new friends, new puppies and new homes. To our crazy business ventures and never-ending imagination, our karaoke silliness and rolling down grass hills. You’re my best friend, you’re my family. I love you and I’m forever grateful to have you in my life.

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Stop Thinking. Start Doing.

I’m sure my parents would agree that I’ve always been the kind of person that seems to be stuck in her own world. Whether it was prancing around as a child picking flowers for everyone during soccer games, sitting in my room drawing and writing stories, or riding around on my bike a on quest to solve mysteries. I’ve just always been a dreamer.

I’m lucky that my parents were able to bring me back to reality often enough that I grew up to be a fairly reasonable and capable adult.

My creative mind has always been a gift, but I’ve realized lately that if you don’t act on ideas often enough, you will end up overwhelmed by them. That’s been my biggest obstacle.

I’m constantly inspired by everything around me. The problem was, I wasn’t doing anything with this inspiration. I was too busy waiting for the next great idea or making excuses for myself.

I was drowning. I was overwhelmed by possibilities, and I wasn’t acting on any of them.

I don’t know what changed lately. I can’t thank any particular individual or moment, but I know that the irrefutable support I get from Nick, my family and my friends, lead to this turning point in my life where I decided to just do it. I started painting, writing and practicing yoga. All of these things have brought me an indescribable inner calm that I’ve been longing for.

I have a need to create. No matter which medium I choose, I need to let my creativity out or else I will drive myself, and everyone around me, absolutely crazy.

I’ve been too busy contemplating how profitable my use of time was before investing in an idea, but all along I was just wasting time debating everything instead of doing anything.

Yes, time is your most important resource, because it is one that isn’t renewable. However, sitting there thinking and letting time pass you by, instead of making something happen, well that is a waste of such an invaluable resource.

I’m sure this won’t be the last time I struggle, but all I know is I haven’t felt this good and this productive in a long time.

If you are reading this and you’ve been thinking about starting your own blog, or starting a YouTube channel, or you’ve been dreaming about creating a product – do it!

Make a small step… or a big one, towards that ultimate goal and you will see how much happiness that simple step will bring you. Each step you take will lead to the next one, and then the next, until you look behind you and realize how far you’ve climbed in such little time. I know it’s easier said than done sometimes, but trust me, it’s better to have tried and failed, than to never have tried at all.

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Beans Now, Steak Later

“Beans Now, Steak Later”, after hearing this for the first time, I was initially puzzled. What did this mean? Oh great… now I’m hungry, and I really want a steak.

The basic principle behind the saying is that, if you live simply now, later on in life you will be able to enjoy life’s pleasures without worry – in this case, a steak. As much as this sounds like an exaggeration, this actually comes from a true story. In Kevin O’Leary’s book Cold Hard Truth On Men, Women & Money, he writes about a time he met an elderly man from Minneapolis. He explains, that he ate beans for over 5 years, and after he paid off his mortgage, he bought himself a steak.

I found myself partially troubled by this idea. When I was younger I was told to save, and that later on in life I would be able to enjoy my savings, travel, and do whatever I pleased. However, when I became old enough to start making my own opinions about life, I started to fear living for tomorrow, and began to live with the mantra “live each day to the fullest”.

Now, at 26 years old, I wish I would have found a balance between both those ideas. Because yes, life is about balance. Living within your means, but enjoying every day to its fullest. The thing I didn’t understand as a teenager, and still struggle with today, is that, living every day to its fullest, doesn’t mean always having to spend money. I, along with many other people, need to learn to embrace and treasure the simple things in life, every single day – and that, is living each day to its fullest.

Beyond my internal debate on the matter, I still believe there is something real, something honest in “Beans Now, Steak Later”. Personally, what I would like to take from it is that, today, you might struggle, you might be doing certain things you’d rather not be doing, but one day, everything you have accomplished, and all the hard work you put in, all of it was moving you towards your ultimate goal, whatever that may be.

Now, go seize the day!